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Chelsea [London] : Printed by J.B. Shears
It feels since Ive taken the letters I wrote to Cett and Surd and what I wrote to you to be printed that Im reaching nearer a place where I shall be able to make things reach you more by ways that arent through spoken or written words than before, but Im not sure of that, and I cant understand it clearly with my mind, I can understand theyre often only like a trail or scent, perhaps theyre always only that, but Im not clear that they wont always be able to help, even if its only as that — but perhaps words are often over used — I think they often are, I mean I think often the energy used to take in or give out through words is out of proportion, there isnt enough left to take in and give out through other ways — but do you see darling it may be I feel it more than most people because Im often much too what can be called dreamy — I mean that things that happen suddenly often fluster and bewilder me, Im not there at the instant, on the spot, as many people are — but it may be I.wasnt ready to live as completely abreast before as it feels Im being pushed to live now — I dont understand yet but that freer feeling is still in me, and do you see darling theres a feeling of waiting thats more peaceful than most feelings in me, and inside that waiting feeling its as if theres something stretching out in me to be by you not only at times consciously but always consciously, it may grow clearer as it goes on, it isnt clear yet and theres another feeling, it is that everything its in me to love or that Im drawn by in any way I need to stretch into and pierce into and hold now far far more vehemently and vividly than Ive done before — do you see darling always before Ive loved too loosely and casually and only in moments — I know it may not seem so from my writing but I think it is so — 111 tell you exact things of each person I come against — they may be exact on the outside or they may be only exact as they come in me — it may be its not that I shall do,
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